Write to Me

For the last five years I’ve been

Searching for you, but I didn’t know it

No I didn’t know it, no I didn’t know it, in everyone’s

Eyes it was always yours that I was

Looking for, and now I can see them

I thought I saw you last month,

But I wasn’t sure if it was you or not

It was on that day that I realised it

Was always you, you from the beginning that I want.

How did I not see that you loved me back then?

Was I so blind? I was blind. I remember you

So well, everything about you, your voice

Your eyes, your hair, your laugh, and I

Remember we laughed a lot.

And I still feel your warmth five years on

Because no one compared, no one came close,

And I am in a cold place now, but the

Thought of you is like the melting of ice in

The hot Sun.

I can’t really say or think of anything else,

Except that your name is on my

Lips most days now. I don’t hope for

Anything great, I don’t ask for

Anything from you now.

All I want is to know that you are

There somewhere, and if you’re not happy

Maybe I could joke and we’d laugh like

We used to.

You should know that I’m no Gatsby, And

I’m no Moulder either, my faith is strong

But it isn’t misguided. I wouldn’t be

Searching now if I knew deep down that you

Didn’t want me to.

I saw you at that Wedding, And I knew it was

You, And I let you go just like I did

Back then. But that wasn’t how it was meant

To end, because I know that you have

Been thinking of me.

13 responses

2 10 2008
elsa p

Hi there, I added your blog’s feed to astro dispatch…. we are a group of over 150 astrology blogger, pooling our energy so that ‘all boats rise”. I hope you get some hits!:)
Elsa P

23 11 2008
Tom Gorham

Who are you? I like you. I enjoy your writings which I just found by accident. You are now in my favorites. Tom DOB 10/30/1950

23 11 2008
buddymaterna

Thank you Tom Gorham, my name is Denis, I write astrology, song lyrics and fiction. The fiction is to be found on another site called Mystic Mountain:

http://neptune02.wordpress.com/

Feel free to comment on anything you want. The feedback actually gives me an incentive to write in the first place.

2 04 2009
Johanna Martinez

Aww, your writing is so beautiful, touches my heart. Thank you.

7 05 2009
apollo palaestra

i read your mars in scorpio page. AMAZING. every last detail perfectly describes my interior city; its actions; its wars–everything.

you are one to watch.

as soon as i have disposable funds, i want to hire you for fuller readings.

a.p.

7 05 2009
pat bishop

Ok then, you, Denis of rich human depth are the best discovery of mine in a very long time.
I love your honesty which is only effective when ego doesn’t predominate perceptions, which is evident that it doesn’t create static to recipients of what you say. In addition, you think and express on 3 levels it appears.

You’ll see postings from me especially on the 2010 topic you’ve covered.
Very scarey for us who live in the states. As an early aries 7 (more of course)
am feelin’ it. Am one of those birds who did not experience any Obama swoon, in fact my skin began to crawl instead. Voted for him, feel I’ll not waste energy on this collective theater since it IS behind all appearences and no longer “real” in this currently developing paradigm.

‘Nuf said. You’re wonderful. Thanks for sharing your generous non-hysterical views. Quite special.

7 05 2009
pat bishop

Forgot to mention I’m an astrologer too of longstanding, find nothing more exciting than a good mind w/a thorough heart attached.
As the Japanese would bow with hand over his heart and say, “my mind is made up” when he reached a decision.

22 07 2009
Buttercup

I love your musings. You are one of the few people who’s words I’ve read dig into the depths of the soul.
I found your site because I was looking for analysis of a Saturn in Aries placement. Another astrologer has been emphasizing STRUCTURE for me as an antidote to feelings of frustration at work.
I’ll look to you for more analysis!

18 09 2009
Prafulla

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17 10 2009
Esras

Hi there,
While i am almost sure, i still want to ask,
I have 5 planets in my 5th house (Sun&Merc:Tau , Moon,Venus,Mars in Aries)
Which one is corresponding with these options? :)
a)Strong Gemini influences
b)Strong Aries influences
c)both

sorry,there is no “d ” option.:-)

Rgds,

21 10 2009
Andrew

Hi there,
I was born at the end of may 1974, as you will see transiting saturn and pluto make aspects to my natal saturn and pluto at the same time .You wrote that psycho pluto will not be able to get any power over saturn as saturn is exalted in libra in the up and coming transit. adding my natal configuration into the mix , does your statement still stand?
rgds Andrew

3 11 2009
Paul Henrickson

Re Wlliam Blake. I notice he seems to have “secret enemies”. Is there some purpose in this, or is it an every chart occurance?

3 11 2009
buddymaterna

Of course there is purpose, but the 12th isn’t simply “enemies”, but secret persons, and affiliations. Think about the times that Blake lived in and his political views…

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